Vincent - Don Mclean

Starry starry night,
paint your palette blue and grey
Look out on a summers day
with eyes that know the darkness in my soul
Shadows on the hills
sketch the trees and the daffodills
Catch the breeze and the winter chills
in colors on the snowy linen land

Now I understand
What you tried to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen
They did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now

Starry Starry Night,
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze
Swirling clouds in violet haze
reflect in Vincents eyes of china blue.
Colors changing hue.
Morning fields of amber grain,
Weathered faces lined in pain
are soothed beneath the artists loving hand

Now I understand
What you tried to say to me
and how you suffered for your sanity
and how you tried to set them free
They would not listen
They did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now.

For they could not love you,
but still your love was true
and when no hope was left in sight
on that Starry,Starry night
you took your life as lovers often do.
But I could've told you Vincent,
this world was never meant for one as beautiful as you

Starry ,Starry Night,
Portraits hung in empty halls.
Frameless heads on nameless walls,
with eyes that watch the world and cant forget.
Like the strangers that you've met.
The ragged men in ragged clothes.
The silver thorn of bloody rose
lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow

Now I think I know
what you tried to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen.
They're not listening still
perhaps they never will.

I need to be strong

Breaking Dawn- Chapter 3- Big Day

She back to her feet before Charlie returned with the two frothy white bouquets. The scent of roses and orange blossom and freesia enveloped me in a soft mist.
Rosalie- the best musician in the family next to Edward- began playing the piano downstairs. Pachelbel's Canon. I began hyperventaliting.
"Focus Bella. Edward is waiting for you down there"

I got to know Pachelbel's Canon early this year through Twilight Saga- 4th book, Breaking Dawn and since then it become my fav piano music. I had a few version of Canon. But i prefer the piano version as it is so calm, sweet and touching.

Hmm...I hope it can calm me down from several upset issues recently.
My right eyelid keep lifting up and dwn for few days. From my past experience, it will be another disaster in my life. What will it be? Something dreadful i think? I wish I could be strong. Stronger than Edward and Bella.

Headache

This year is not a healthy year for me. I have been visiting doctors and clinics a lot, ended up exceeded my medical claims. I am suffering with constant headache and migraine for more than a month. And its killing me and affecting my works and housechores and everything. I have broken my MC records which I took 4 days MC in a row, which I never dare to even think to take before. Throughout this 1 mth plus, I have been thinking a lot. I am grateful that i am getting better after seeing 6 doctors and paying few hundred dollars for specialist. Life is really short, and its meaningless if we never achieve what we want. Thinking back, why are we so "zhi zuo" at times? We only live once. Accidents do happen, sickness do happen.Please cherish whatever you have and grateful that they are still around.Do my best to you till the end, and there shall be no regret no matter whatever happen later.