Lonely Weekend

I am hoping to have public holiday since long long time ago. Every month will browse through the calender in advance for 2 to 3 months to foresee any public holiday on those months. And yes, the long waited public holiday is here. It is Good Friday! But it will be a Boring Friday instead. Haha....All friends going back homwtwn. Sis and family also going back hometwn. So i will be left alone for 3 whole days. I could have just buy a ticket and go back with them. And i could just go to KL to visit my best fren there. And I could just ask PH to accompany me and forget about that 3K. Wahaha....But i do not know what really bother me so much and tied me dwn from all these...I dunwan to be alone yet i also dunwan to do all those?? I am just making myself confuse again...