Scars (Stronger For Life) by Corrine May

I just want to run
Just want to hide away
Close my eyes to your gaze
Just want to leave
Don't want to hear them say
"You're no good at this"

When the world swirls with naysayers
Broken wings and torn pages
The road ahead
Drowning in my tears

Break me open
Tear me down
Into pieces
Broken crumbs
On the ground
You can mould and shape me
In your image
Breathe your life
You know I need it
Scars make us stronger for life

Losing myself
Gaining it back again
Forging strength from weakness
All that I am
All that I'm meant to be
Melting in your hand

Let the world swirl with naysayers
Pickled hearts and sour faces
What is real is what I cannot see

Break me open
Tear me down
Into pieces
Broken crumbs
On the ground
You can mould and shape me
In your image
Breathe your life
You know I need it
Scars make us stronger for life

Cut away
All within me
That won't bear fruit
Cut away
All within me

Cut away
All within me
That won't bear fruit
Cut away
All within me

Break me open
Tear me down
Into pieces
Broken crumbs
On the ground
You can mould and shape me
In your image
Breathe your life
You know I need it
Scars make us stronger

Scars make us stronger for life

Bad Day

I have a bad day today, throat not getting better but getting worst. And again, i have scolded those vendors on the phone like they are e most stupid people in the earth! I feel real bad at the end of e day, guilty...I feel i am an evil person and i think everyone in the office is having the same thought. Sighhhhh......i just cannot figure out why i become from bad to worst in scolding people on the phone, or even face to face sometimes, at work. My temper really going haywire these days. Is it the way an old hag behave? Oh my, i know i am going to be an old spinster, but just let me have a relax life k...or least dun make me an evil please~

Peace

Strange enough that I was unable to sleep whole last nite and required to go for a training till noon today, then work non stop till 9 plus pm, yet i felt not tired at all. I was standing in front of the mrt railway, facing the dark "totoro's" forest, i felt happy. I did not know wat type of feeling was that. I think shld be satisfaction. Though i never received any recognition, but after spending some quiet time doing my own job, i felt glad. I had been trying to think a lot lately. As i started to vent to all the people around me, getting unwanted attention, i felt bad actually. I wanted to have some time to stop and think, why i behaved like a monster, hating myself even more after hurting others. I need to think and think, how to control my emotion during urgent and chaos situations, handling people, even talking to people. Sigh, since young i do not really study this, as this is the most difficult task in my life.
And I keep thinking is guy/gal r/ship really tht important in my life? I know it is so important till can die for it, but i think it shld not be tht way. I need to find myself, but how. Is a real hard task. Peace.....in mind.