Wish u happy, mummy

Its Mothers Day today. As usual i am alone in mostly all occassions and its just lonely and lonely. And now i am writing this blog in my dark room, with no lights on, the only thing i could hear was the standing fan was working and eason's voice, chanting with his song on youtube. My head is splitting..getting worse today.. it is so pain non stop. I do not know what could i do. See a doc again? To get painkillers? GOsh..same thing is repeating again and again..am i dying? i have not even solve my current problem yet another pain is coming.